Down on my knees..
I look up to you
Your face seems distant..
Hazy..lost amidst the hundred faces surrounding you.
Let me in, I plead
Leave,you scorn at me and kick my face.
I know you want me to come in, I say, tears in my eyes.
You know too much,you mutter under your breath
You know nothing, you only presume,
You hiss at me, your face contorted, your cruel eyes cold like a snake.
I shiver, your coldness chilling me to my very bones.
I get up, stagger, take a few steps back.
I turn, slowly walk away, but you don't call me back.
Down the alley, my limbs are too heavy to move
My heart shattered.
I try my best to go on without looking back.
But I can take it no more..
I give in,tears wet my bed throughout the night and many more..
I try to recollect..the memories flash through my mind
The pictures clear and bright like daylight.
I question myself.
Desperate, I try to find what went wrong..
But you leave me clueless.
This is not the place I wanted to retire to
Tired, at the end of the day..
This is not the place I remember
Being so familiar with.
Fear, an inescapable fear..
I have seen it in your eyes today.
Afraid you are to let anyone know..
Afraid you are to let anyone in..
Lest they would leave it one day.
You have let me wait at your doorstep far too long
To not know what goes on.
Is that why you punish me now?
Is this what went wrong?
I know I have lost the path
I will never be able to find my way back.
Your memory haunts me every single moment I live.
I am frightened
Not for myself
But for you, for what you have become.
I know I will heal, I will find some other place to call it Home.
But, I am afraid, I doubt, you ever will.
I will remain always
Your broken Angel.
